Adam Fieled (Philly, USA): from Apparition Poems
#1602
I stepped like a mantis off this ship
of fools, felt around for prey, found
a plate of ants to put in a microwave,
I saw how they scurried briefly, put it
into text that had the heat of ovens in
it, shipped this text across vast oceans,
it preyed on suspicions, was placed on
plates, now that I have prayed, I am (or
may be) redeemed, but every step I take
feels like a scurry, as the fools are more
numerous than I thought, just like ants.
#1603
“Be careful what you handle,”
I told her, “you can get to me
even if you touch another,” it
happened in an office shaped
like the foyer of a huge hovel,
built of mud, etchings of bugs
on the wall, perfect perverse
kids scampering among clods.
“You know what I want, and
how I can get it,” she replied,
as she took another out, put
me in, but only inside a brain
used amiss to find a level that,
shaped like a foyer, was past
office, into brick, sans mud.
#1607
Every live body has a dialect:
to the extent that bodies are
in the process of effacing both
themselves, what they efface, I
move past dialect to the extent
that there are no no-brainers
here, what’s moral in this is the
belief that properly used dialects
emanate waves to hold bodies
in place. As to who’s saying this,
I heard this on the street last
night after a few drinks with
an ex at Dirty Frank’s. It was
a bum who meant it, it worked.
#1613
Follow Abraham up the hill:
to the extent that the hill is
constituted already by kinds
of knives, to what extent can
a man go up a hill, shepherd
a son to be sacrificed, to be
worthy before an almighty
power that may or may not
have had conscious intentions
where hills, knives, sons were
concerned, but how, as I watch
this, can I not feel that Abraham,
by braving knives, does not need
the one he holds in his rapt hands?
#1621
He paints, as he paints he rises,
rises in cash, rises in independence,
all the phantoms of his past dissolve,
he effaces traces with his brush, but this
is not art, it is buildings, floors, office rooms,
yet the passion he feels for these private moments
with paint make a soul’s masterpiece just for him, his
mouth opens slightly at key moments, the soul opens,
the heart opens, empty places fill, there is no necessity
for anything outward besides his hands movements, &
that someone is paying him good money to do this, so
though he knows there are child’s strains in him he is
comforted, absolved, made to dissolve into these acts
he performs that are his, his alone, and this, like any
masterpiece, happens in him for eternity, as it must.
© Adam Fieled 2010
I stepped like a mantis off this ship
of fools, felt around for prey, found
a plate of ants to put in a microwave,
I saw how they scurried briefly, put it
into text that had the heat of ovens in
it, shipped this text across vast oceans,
it preyed on suspicions, was placed on
plates, now that I have prayed, I am (or
may be) redeemed, but every step I take
feels like a scurry, as the fools are more
numerous than I thought, just like ants.
#1603
“Be careful what you handle,”
I told her, “you can get to me
even if you touch another,” it
happened in an office shaped
like the foyer of a huge hovel,
built of mud, etchings of bugs
on the wall, perfect perverse
kids scampering among clods.
“You know what I want, and
how I can get it,” she replied,
as she took another out, put
me in, but only inside a brain
used amiss to find a level that,
shaped like a foyer, was past
office, into brick, sans mud.
#1607
Every live body has a dialect:
to the extent that bodies are
in the process of effacing both
themselves, what they efface, I
move past dialect to the extent
that there are no no-brainers
here, what’s moral in this is the
belief that properly used dialects
emanate waves to hold bodies
in place. As to who’s saying this,
I heard this on the street last
night after a few drinks with
an ex at Dirty Frank’s. It was
a bum who meant it, it worked.
#1613
Follow Abraham up the hill:
to the extent that the hill is
constituted already by kinds
of knives, to what extent can
a man go up a hill, shepherd
a son to be sacrificed, to be
worthy before an almighty
power that may or may not
have had conscious intentions
where hills, knives, sons were
concerned, but how, as I watch
this, can I not feel that Abraham,
by braving knives, does not need
the one he holds in his rapt hands?
#1621
He paints, as he paints he rises,
rises in cash, rises in independence,
all the phantoms of his past dissolve,
he effaces traces with his brush, but this
is not art, it is buildings, floors, office rooms,
yet the passion he feels for these private moments
with paint make a soul’s masterpiece just for him, his
mouth opens slightly at key moments, the soul opens,
the heart opens, empty places fill, there is no necessity
for anything outward besides his hands movements, &
that someone is paying him good money to do this, so
though he knows there are child’s strains in him he is
comforted, absolved, made to dissolve into these acts
he performs that are his, his alone, and this, like any
masterpiece, happens in him for eternity, as it must.
© Adam Fieled 2010
